A “friend” and a mask.

As I look into the mirror, a 9 year old me stares back. My hands move to touch my stomach, my arms & thighs. My fingers pinching and pushing my youth as I go. “What is this?” I think, “when did all of this get here?” All of a sudden, I feel her. She sits […]

What is even happening.

Life is interesting. One moment you think “alright, I think ya girl has got it” and the next you are thinking “what in the literal hell is this”. I, lately, have been having thoughts more leaning towards “wut the hell”. It’s interesting that as a child, your mind and way of thinking, is just so […]

Anxiety got me in a WWE fight.

LOL Y’ALL. You will NOT believe it. BUT. My boyfriend named anxiety has been so cool guys. Like lately, he’s put so much pressure on me of what I should say or look like or gives me advice of just shutting out everyone or putting labels on people so that I won’t connect with them […]

I love myself & I hate myself: New RomCom coming soon.

I honestly feel like I am going to explode sometimes with the dialogue/emotions/daydreams/anxiety that runs throughout my body. Everyone will always ask “well, where is it coming from? What’s the starting point? Find that and it will all go away.” Welllllll, I WISH I knew what the starting point was, it would be friggin’ […]

Fickle Humans, Fickle Life

I kind of don’t understand the fickle human I am sometimes. Like I have learned how to be vulnerable, why to do it and the support it brings and yet…. I don’t wanna do it all the time. I have learned the pattern of my mood and know when it severely drops and what I […]

7 years.

Today marks 7 years since choosing to be in recovery from my eating disorder and to choose a healthy life living with a mental health disorder instead of being a servant to it. HUZZAH. PRAISE GOD. HOW DA HAIL HAVE I MADE IT. Honestly. I didn’t really know if I should even celebrate it this […]

Omg. My struggles actually prepare me for better things.

Okay, so. Here I go, here I go, here I go again (again?) Girls, what’s my weakness? (Men!) Omg. Secrets out. I love salt-n-pepa. But on a more serious note, I was feeling nostalgic and read through my journal (I am writing in right now) today. Honestly, it was cool but also somewhat sad because […]

I know it’s been F-O-R-E-V-E-R since I’ve written on this sweet ol’ thing & I really want to change that. I’ve actually been thinking about a lot of things in my life that I want to change so that I can stay present and live in the moment. One of those things was deleting my […]

Love my baggage.

Okaaaaaay, before we read about Tanner’s awesome video art piece, I first need to give a little introduction about this gem of a dude. Tanner is one of the most real, kind and loving people I have ever met. He is the real deal. He’s so talented and he shares his talents in so many […]

Third Eye Blind needs to recruit me to be in their band.

So, ya girl is graduating this week. I know what you’re thinking. PRAISE GOD. Oh don’t you worry, I am. But as this week was approaching, my pubescent trials of my past came knocking on my door. Actually, no. More like robbing me and then making permanent residence. I literally broke out on my ENTIRE […]