• A big ol’ heart.

    A big ol’ heart.

    Sometimes I feel like it’s more a burden to have such a big, empathetic heart in a way. I mean, you feel your emotions so deeply and then you’re able to feel what others feel in the same manner. It feels like lately that I have people that I care about *so* much that have…

  • But Mama, graduate school?

    But Mama, graduate school?

    Part of what people don’t tell you about growing up is that……. IT IS SO MUCH HARDER THAN KEVIN & TERI STOLWORTHY SHOWED ME. I don’t know how my parents were able to hide the stress, big decisions, quarrels, money issues, anxiety, etc. from my sisters and I but BRA-FRIGGIN-VO because I never knew that’s…

  • Embracing your Inner Roommate

    Embracing your Inner Roommate

    After many years of scolding myself at the thought of success, I can say confidently that I am doing well. Whole heartedly believing It is the premiere part. It is like being set free from a cage you have been trapped in unknowingly for the past 17 years. The past few weeks I have woke…

  • Bodies.

    Bodies.

    I’ve been thinking a lot about bodies lately. And by bodies, I don’t mean I’ve been checking out them boys at the gym and wanting to introduce myself whilst lifting 250 pound weights. I mean my own and how much of a wonder it really, truly is. I haven’t been the best at treating my…

  • He Who Must Not Be Named

    He Who Must Not Be Named

          “Cancer,”  the solemn answer so often whispered when asked about a person’s devastating illness or untimely passing. When you say the word cancer, do you kind of whisper it? I do.  I wish I could remember the movie in which the characters talk about this- when a word is associated with death…

  • You mean, I’m not perfect, Doctor?!

    You mean, I’m not perfect, Doctor?!

    ****this is something ya girl wrote like almost two months ago but I’ve been thinking about a TON lately. Yesterday was my second to last day working. I was super bummed but I had some way rad spiritual experiences that I’ll explain later. I had to keep reminding myself that even though I loved the…

  • Decisions, decisions, I actually made one.

    Decisions, decisions, I actually made one.

    SO. I made a decision. I know this may come as a shock to some, but alas it has happened; mama has changed. I decided to actually make something more of these anxious babblings by having other people (that I admire & love the crap out of) to write their own (important) babblings to share,…

  • So many lights.

    So many lights.

    Have you ever had the lights in your own life grow dim and you just knew that a trial was headed your way? It’s as if you walked into a room that was fully lit and little by little, the lights in the room begin to dim and then all of a sudden everything goes…

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    You know, I can for sure say that 2017 was a rough, hard, shitty, refining year for me. Bless up. I actually felt ALL of my self-hatred. I didn’t understand how deeply rooted that self-hatred was/is. I didn’t numb out and because of that my emotions seemed to drown me when I let them in…