A big ol’ heart.

Sometimes I feel like it’s more a burden to have such a big, empathetic heart in a way. I mean, you feel your emotions so deeply and then you’re able to feel what others feel in the same manner. It feels like lately that I have people that I care about *so* much that have […]

But Mama, graduate school?

Part of what people don’t tell you about growing up is that……. IT IS SO MUCH HARDER THAN KEVIN & TERI STOLWORTHY SHOWED ME. I don’t know how my parents were able to hide the stress, big decisions, quarrels, money issues, anxiety, etc. from my sisters and I but BRA-FRIGGIN-VO because I never knew that’s […]

Bodies.

I’ve been thinking a lot about bodies lately. And by bodies, I don’t mean I’ve been checking out them boys at the gym and wanting to introduce myself whilst lifting 250 pound weights. I mean my own and how much of a wonder it really, truly is. I haven’t been the best at treating my […]

He Who Must Not Be Named

“Cancer,” the solemn answer so often whispered when asked about a person’s devastating illness or untimely passing. When you say the word cancer, do you kind of whisper it? I do. I wish I could remember the movie in which the characters talk about this- when a word is associated with death […]

You mean, I’m not perfect, Doctor?!

****this is something ya girl wrote like almost two months ago but I’ve been thinking about a TON lately. Yesterday was my second to last day working. I was super bummed but I had some way rad spiritual experiences that I’ll explain later. I had to keep reminding myself that even though I loved the […]

Decisions, decisions, I actually made one.

SO. I made a decision. I know this may come as a shock to some, but alas it has happened; mama has changed. I decided to actually make something more of these anxious babblings by having other people (that I admire & love the crap out of) to write their own (important) babblings to share, […]

So many lights.

Have you ever had the lights in your own life grow dim and you just knew that a trial was headed your way? It’s as if you walked into a room that was fully lit and little by little, the lights in the room begin to dim and then all of a sudden everything goes […]

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You know, I can for sure say that 2017 was a rough, hard, shitty, refining year for me. Bless up. I actually felt ALL of my self-hatred. I didn’t understand how deeply rooted that self-hatred was/is. I didn’t numb out and because of that my emotions seemed to drown me when I let them in […]